I limp when I run- but I still do.
It all stems from years ago when I was in grade 4. My goodness-we were basically forced to do at least 3 activities for athletics day trials. One of the activities I was going to do was hurdles. So there I was, a young obese little girl at the time, short as I was- committed to doing this!
So a hurdle looks a little something like this- almost my height, I know 🙂 This IS NOT a picture from that day- just an illustration of what a hurdle is.
So on that day. I was in the same racing row as one of my friends. The whistle went off and we ran and we jumped- over the 1st hurdle , over the 2nd hurdle, over the 3rd hurdle and then boom– as I was trying to jump over the 4th hurdle- my leg fell short of going high enough to jump OVER the hurdle- and instead I hit my knee straight into the hurdle.
I fell immediately onto the ground and all I remember was waking up and I had this whole crowd of people around me looking so distraught. The first person I noted – was my mom- so teary.
Long story short- I was taken to an orthopedic doctor in Port Shepstone where they said that my knee was going to heal by itself as I grew because I was still very young and my bones were still to grow. I’m still yet to find out exactly what happened medically, but I think I had a patellar (knee-cap) dislocation- so instead of looking smooth and rounded, my knee basically had this hollow groove on the front. It looked so painful but I was absolutely pain-free.
Because I was actually obese, to put it plainly, at the time-. my weight was a heavy burden on my knee so it didn’t grow or heal as expected. In grade 6- I was 12 years old- I went for operation as advised by the orthopedic surgeon. I was on crutches with a large POP- Plaster of
And afterwards- I was left with this 🙂 Not the most beautiful scar, if I must say so myself , but beautiful now because I’ve learned to embrace it 🙂
SILVER LINING OF THIS STORY?
Well here’s the thing- I’m not really sure how
I guess I look back at this injury and it all happened way before my weight loss journey and my passion for exercise, wellness and nutrition began and I hardly knew then that one day I would be the very same person driven to motivate and inspire others to pursue their health through exercise- imperfect, yet perfect and still being perfected for the job.
TD Jakes says in His book DESTINY that “when you reflect on your life, you may be amazed that your greatest moments resulted from circumstances that you did not control or initiate. .” Needless to say – I feel precisely like that.
I’m grateful that I didn’t lose an entire limb and that I can still walk, run, sprint!
I’m reminded of the story of Jacob in the bible who also became a limper after wrestling with God yet was one of the people God really used for His Glory. I love this commentary from a blog post I read: “Jacob is literally a limper, and he proves that God is still pursuing the screw-ups, and using them for His glory.”
So here’s the crux- you most probably didn’t or don’t desire to have the imperfections that you do. Sometimes our imperfections are very visible to us and others, and sometimes only known to us. Whatever those imperfections
So embrace them, let them not hinder you, let them not be excuses to shy away from what you still CAN and are able to do, Your imperfections show to the world that you are HUMAN, yet you can still do great things- that makes everyone else feel HUMAN yet CAPABLE.
In these beautiful words- “Our imperfections unite us in vulnerability and lead us to compassion for one another. But the ego’s quest for perfection traps us in isolation and in a longing that cannot be fulfilled.” From Connie Zweig’s THE HOLY LONGING.
So go out, be imperfect, strive to be better and be great!!
I love you
Dr. Dee 🙂